Catastrophically In Love With You (2007)

My words are not fictitious.
My touch makes you shiver.
You are my only.
My one and only.
Your voice is in my head.
At all times.
And your picture in my mind.
Your eyes...
They don't haunt me,
But rather make me smile.
You're gorgeous.
I'm a mess.
I'm a fuck-up.
I'm a disaster.
I'm a catastrophe.

But I'm catastrophically in love with you.

Reality (2007)

What's done is done.
What happens when you can't say what you feel,
And you can't feel what you really feel?
What happens when you fake smiles to get you through the day?
No worries.
No feelings.
Just a catastrophe waiting to happen.
It's complete anarchy between the thoughts in your head.
And the nights grow shorter, and your days longer,
And soon you're living in a fake reality.
Nothing seems real anymore.
You're hardly alive.
You're not real.
You're fictitious.

Only Reason (2007)

Now I'm feeling dizzy.
And I can't breathe.
The lights are fading, pulsating.
I'm shaking-
Could it be, you're my
Only reason for waking?

Sugar (2007)

Sugar is...

Some say sugar makes me happy.
If I call you sugar it means you're sweet.
It means I like you.
You must be pretty special if I've ever called you sugar.
Just one taste of it and I'm set.
It doesn't take much.
It'll bring me up when I'm down.
Like a drug.
Like an addiction.
I hate to say it, but I'm addicted to sugar.
My sugar.
Any sugar.
It doesn't help my problems.
No, it doesn't even start to help.
It doesn't save me from the troubles lurking in the back of my mind...

Sugar.
It's just false hope.

Fake (2006)

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

I try to stop, but I can't help myself.
I can't comprehend what I want to be...
Who, I want to be.

Is it always so hard?
Why can't we ever find what we're looking for?

Everybody's fake.
There's nobody real left.
Or very few...

But when your life is at stake.
What would you do...
When they know you're a liar?

Alone (2007)

Sometimes...
I feel left out.
I feel alone.
I feel unwanted.
Sometimes,
Nobody wants to hear my voice.

What did I do wrong?

Goodbye, For A Night (2007)

What lurks behind us?
I'm not going to look back.
There's nothing there, I swear.
Stay sweet, my dear.
'Till the morning comes.
'Till the sunshine's up.
The nighttime's over,
When I finally breathe my last sigh.
This last whisper in your ear.
"It's all the same..."
This last night's over.
The sun lurks behind the trees.
Don't look back, it's over.
I won't leave if you won't.
Your sweetness envelopes the truth.
The truth that we must say our goodbyes.
And we'll be on our way.

Broken Promises (2007)

I say your name in silence
Into the cold night air.
I don't dare let you hear it-
It might break a promise.
I open my eyes and make a
Silent wish.
A silent wish that won't come true.
I can't let you hear me.
But it's not like you ever did.
Broken promises are your thing.
Sweetheart, close your eyes.
And I'll wish for you.
The abyss of the night closes in.
Until I'm numb from the dark.
My whisper breaking the silence.
Are you back for more?
Did my wish come true?
No, no, no, no.
'Cause broken promises are your thing.

Insomniac Baby (July 30th, 2009)

If it's your fault that I can't sleep, I must be dreaming,
you're inside of my head again,
If we continue on this way, I'll never get to sleep.
As of late, I'm an insomniac, about to have a heart attack
Since you've been comin' round.
But I don't let that bother me,
'Cause i like you a lot.
They say sleep is for the weak
So I guess you make me strong.

You can't want to spend every last moment with
Someone if you haven't actually spent a
moment (in person) with them.

Why are you always on my mind???

Hearts go bang with a flash.

It's six AM and I haven't even closed my eyes.
I don't know what to do anymore,
When I get stuck I think of you.
I keep thinking, do you think of me to?

I Want To Get Out. (May 21, 2009)

Listening to the same song over and over again
makes me feel better.
I need the song started over
your crying made me miss my
favorite part.
I feel the smooth skin slightly brush against
the backside of my arm. I need the song
started over, your crying made me miss my
favorite part. (your eyes are greener)
I hear the exclamation point. Do do do do...
Lay back, the song is almost over. I try to
hear you out, but I dozed off. I need the
song started over, your crying made me
miss my favorite part. (your eyes are meaner)
Rachael, it's times like these I wonder. Do do do do...

Plays pretty for baby.

I won't See You Tonight pt II (May 13, 2009)

Holy fuck I did not see that coming. Rei just
came up behind me and kissed my head and hugged
me. She touched my hipbones yesterday and
I liked it, LOL.

I WON'T SEE YOU TONIGHT:1 (May 12, 2009)

Holy fuck, I need medication for this. My heart
won't stop beating fast and I can't breathe.
I'm not going to see you tonight, am I? This
doesn't look like my writing to me. Am I on
crack? You're still sick. I'm so not going to see
you tonight. Even though you said before
and haven't said otherwise. I am actually
shaking. And you're not texting me back and
I'm freaking out and probably totally overreacting
and I just know we're not gonna see eachother tonight
somehow. I just want to hold you and make you
feel okay. Like, I actually feel like crying right now.
Actually I don't know how I feel.
All I know is that I want to be in your arms
right now. You're the only person that can
actually calm me down. Aside from Michelle and
maybe Felicia. This is like Mac-era shit.
I'm getting to the point where I need you...
And that's not a good thing 'cause we'll end
up like my last relationship. I don't want to
panic and be clingy, I really don't. But I
Love you and all I want is the best for you.
I want you to be okay, darling. You're better
than Mac. Absolutely fantastic. This isn't
even for you. You will never read this.
Fuck ,what?

May Showers Bring June Flowers? (May 7, 2009)

Between the trees, I hear your
Voice, the weather matches my mood
an overcast sky for an overcast mind.
I look up for the sun, but it's not there.
Only darkness falling upon the moistened
leaves. The raindrops drip off the sides
of the leaves, and into my hair.
This is a really bad poem and I don't
like it at all. I have a juicebox

Occasional Becomes Addiction - Continued (May 4th, 2009)

Occasional becomes addiction.
I'm okay. You're okay. Don't panic. You're
overreacting. You always do this. He's okay.
You have absolutely nothing to panic over.
Everything is okay. Just calm yourself down.
panicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanic.
Stop shaking, you're fine. Don't panic don't panic.
don'tpanicdon'tpanicdon'tpanicdon'tpanicdon't
panic.Just breathe.panicpanicpanicpanic
panicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanic
panicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanic
panicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanicpanic
Am I addicted? panic panic panic don't panic
panic panic panic panic See? Nothing
to worry about. Holy shit, I am hungry.
I'm so glad I'm getting better so I won't be too
sick to eat anymore. Even though I'm a
Size 0 now. My hipbones are so fucking
hot... I need to fill the page. It won't look right.
It needs to look right. Time is moving so
slowly, I can't breathe. Stop holding your
breath. You're fine. Tingly watermelon gum.
Breathe, for god's sake. You're over this.
You're over being like this. You arenot
having a panic attack. You need to work
on your writing. Write neater. Think about
something funny. LOL. My eyes hurt. Put your
glasses back on. Eat more crackers. I feel sick.
You're good. Yep. Shake it. Kyle's okay. Finish.
Nipples. Addict Addict Addict panic No more.

Occasional Becomes Addiction (May 4th, 2009)

I like how I haven't had any caffiene or
sugar and I'm already having a panic attack.
I hate how it's always really fucking windy
and how I have to walk to school every
fucking day now just because mom
needs to get to work "on time" when
she's almost always made us late before
because she needs her shoes to match
perfectly with her outfit. I hate how
every tiny thing that's wrong with you upsets
me probably more than it hurts you. That's
fucked up - I don't want to panic
and cry because I'm worried just because
you have a fucking headache. Like, yes
I want to worry and care about you
I just don't want to be crazy extreme,
Ughh. You need to stop staying up late.
I'm panicking so bad I can't think right now. I don't wanna be told
to grow up, and I'm not gonna
change, so you better give up,
i don't wanna grow up. Why can't
you just leave me alone? I know
It's extremely bad to say, but I want to
be dead before 20. Die young and fucking
save yourself.

050109 (2009)

Karly's hair is
really soft <3

I want to fall through
the center of the earth.

The room is spinning
and I am shaking,

Time is moving very
SLOWLY

Redbull ( July 30th 2009 - Blog)

So, here I am, at six in the morning.
Caffeine's got me going good.
If I had to live forever, I'd drink Redbull.
Although I wouldn't want to live forever,
'Cause forever sucks.
Sometimes I wish I could write songs,
But all my ideas are lost in my head.
and they're just screaming to get out,
But they're trapped inside there,
and they're not going anywhere,
So I'm stuck writing shit like this instead of lyrics. This is
a piece of shit blog type thing that
nobody's gonna read. Also,

I lied.

It's actually 7 in the morning...
I'm awake and shaking and buzzed. Tired?
Maybe. Sleep? No. I miss you.
If I was writing a song, I'd write it about you. And remind me to look for
that ,fictitious shit the "Sugar Rush" "Catastrophically In Love With You" shit.
And the song I wrote about Licht.
Yeah. I don't know this should end.
I will end you.

-heyjuliet

The Formal Party (2008 - Story)

I wasn't asked to come inside, and I didn't want to anyways. I wanted to sit outside and watch the stars. They were strewn out in the navy blue velvet sky like a handful of glitter. The last of the light of the sun had faded away about two or so hours ago, and the sunset was beautiful while it lasted. I knew I probably should come inside, because tomorrow was a big day. Tomorrow was the day of the Formal Party.

The Formal Party was this huge extravagant event that everybody always got so excited about. It included boring classical music, wine and a whole lot of people who discussed poetry and other such likes of fine art. The worst part of it was the introductions. I had been taking piano lessons since I was seven (against my will), and every year my piano teacher, Ms. Presley, tried to drag me out of my corner and introduce me to all these fancy wine-sipping art fanatics. No, I didn't much like this Formal Party at all.

I glanced at the watch on my wrist. It flashed 2:54am. I sighed, pulling my sleeve over my hand again, and shivered in the cool autumn air. I better go inside and sleep. If there's anything worse than being at the Formal Party, it's being at the Formal Party, but all zoned out from lack of sleep, like a zombie. Ms. Presley didn't much care for that at all, and neither did my parents. I took one last look at the sparkling sky and went inside.

~*~

"Cadence, it's time to wake up!" I groaned, and pulled the pillow from underneath me overtop of my head, as I awakened to Amelia, the maid's v oice, and the sound of the curtains opening, accompanied by the immensely bright sunlight that came with it.
"...What time is it?" I asked, blinking, and then pushing a stray strand of my messy black hair behind my ear. I had dyed it black first when I was thirteen, and my parents were horrified that I hadn't kept it blonde like the rest of the debutantes who go to the Formal Party. (They were afraid of anything different than refined rich people, I think.)
"It's nearly eleven thirty, dear." Amelia replied, dusting the curtains absentmindedly. They never really got dusty, but she did it anyways. I flopped my head back down on the pillow dramatically. That's the latest I've woken up in the past three weeks. I thne got out of bed and headed to the shower.

~*~

I looked into my wine glass of sparkling grape juice. It tasted funny. I'd never really much cared for grape juice at all. I sight, twisting a stray curl of hair in my fingers. Yes, my older sister had insisted on curling my hair. I frowned, watching all of the people in the room. You had the old rich geezers and their stuffy mustaches, their wives, with I guarantee you, eighty thousand dollars worth of diamond incrusted jewellery on them. And their children. They were the worst type of people. Those snobby stuck up sons and daughters with their blonde hair and their perfect posture...

"Cadence.' I looked up to an unfortunate familliar face. Ms. Presley's daughter, Sydney. She stood in a navy blue evening gown, which looked to be made out of some kind of uncomfortable sparkly material. 9much like the sky last night, but exceedingly less beautiful.)
"Yes?" I said innocently.
"I just wanted to say that I hope you enjoyed my peformance this evening. Fur Elise. Such a fine piece of work, don't you think? I think I did a wonderful job. Perfection." She smiled cruelly.
"Oh, yes." I mumbled. "Wonderful." Just then, Ms. Presley joined our conversation, looking extremely extravagant as usual.
"Oh, good! Thank goodness I've found you, Cadence! My good friend Mr. Rosenthal would like to meet you!"
"Wonderful." I said, again, letting myself be dragged off into the boiling depths of socialization. We stopped in front of a man in a green button-down shirt. No mustache.
"Mr. Rosenthal." Ms. Presely tapped him on the shoulder. "This is Cadence. She's my best piano student." Oh, I forgot to mention that I was exceedingly good at playing the piano, whether I liked it or not. That's what you get when you've been forced to play an instrument for ten years. I had nothing better to do but practice, because I clearly didn't get along with everybody else. "And Cadence, Mr. Rosenthal is the head of Gales Music College in New York."
"Ah, yes." He said, and smiled a genuine smile. "Cadence."
"Well, I'll leave you two free to mingle." Ms. Presley said, and fluttered on to scold her daughter for sneaking a kiss with the owner of the music school's son, Scot. Free to mingle. Hah. I wouldn't call such things as "Mingling", freedom. It's just giving you the illusion of free will. You're put in a situation where you're being forced to talk to a whole bunch of people you don't know or like at all, but given the fact that there's a large volume of people you can choose from, apparently that's "Freedom" of choice. I would choose nobody.
"Yes, hi." I stuttered, looking down at my shoes. They hurt my feet.
"I saw your performance earlier." He said. There goes that smile again. "It was quite brilliant if I do say so myself."
"Thank you," I said absentmindedly. I must act like a debutante. I must be like everybody else, I thought. This is a very important man. But his smile was so genuine, making me feel more comfortable around him. And besides, he wasn't even wearing a tie. "But I hate that song." And to my surprise, he laughed.
"And why is that?"
"Well, the notes are all over the place. There are too many staccatos, and the overall sound of it is much too upbeat for my liking." He nodded.
"I see." And the conversation went on, and that was my last, and best Formal Party I ever went to. This year, I'm attending Gales Music College in New York, and Mr. Rosenthal is my piano teacher. My personal well-being is much better now that I've learned that being yourself is a lot better than being a Barbie doll wannabe like Sydney Presley.

Why (2002)

When I see you laugh
When I see you cry
When I see you frown,
My world gets turned upside down
Then my mouth gets dry,
As I say goodbye, and wonder

Why did I have to say goodbye?
Why did I have to go?
I wish it wasn’t so
Why, oh why?
I wish I wasn’t leaving
It would be so relieving
Why, oh why?

Do you really care,
If I was, or wasn’t there?
The time has passed so fast
I wish it would have lasted
That I was never blasted with this sudden burden
To be leaving you here in California
So I’m just going to warn you,
That you’ll always be in my heart
Our love is everlasting

*Chorus*

As I wave through the window
As the airplane goes so slow,
I catch a glimpse of your teary eyes
As I sail past you in the skies
And I realize,
Now you’re gone away forever

Why did I have to say goodbye?

Slipping Away (2003)

I feel you slipping away again
Slipping right through my hands
Leaving and empty space in my heart.

The space I'd reserved for you.

Slipping away
I feel you
Slipping away
Ever so far away
I can feel you've gone.

You've left me empty handed
And alone to walk through
This unforgiving place we call home
Left me wandering aimlessly with an empty soul

*Chorus*

You are now broken-heartedly unforgiven

I can feel you've slipped away
Leaving me here on my own to wander this
Unforgiving place we call home,
While you half-heartedly saunter away

You're Not Coming Back (2004)

Do you think I deserve this?
All this hate has come between us
I know we’re over, but I still love you
I know you’re gone, but I still need you
I just can’t get it through my head
That you’re just not coming back

Do you ever think about me?
Think that we could still be?
That the sun will not shine,
If you’re not still mine
But you’re not coming back,
No you’re not coming back

I guess it doesn’t do me any good
To sit around and fantasize
To wish, to stare into your eyes
But you can’t save me
I’m lost and confused
I still want you,
Even though I’ve been used
I just can’t get it through my head,
That you’re just not coming back

*Chorus*
Come
Stay
Love
Lie
Hurt
Cry
Need
Want
Tease
Taunt

You’re not coming back
(But I want you)
You’re not coming back
(But I still need you)
No, you’re not coming back

Prove You Wrong (2002)

Why is everything so hard?
Why is everything so mest?
Why does it have to end this way?

Well I don’t know,
No, I never knew
I won’t forget
No, I won’t forget
How hard you’ve been on me
Thank you for teaching me
Thank you for showing me
That we can’t live this way

It’s a living nightmare
It’s a living hell
You can’t keep it up for long
You think you know it all
But you don’t
No, you don’t

*Chorus*

I’m sick of all this suffering
So I’m gonna make this stop!
(Eventually…)
I’m gonna prove you wrong.

I Told You So (2006)

I hate the way you say "I told you so-"
Left alone all those nights
But I never put up a fight
This should've ended with a kiss
I hate the way you say-

*Maybe memories- Lost in an alternate reality
Turn back time
Forget that we ever met
All our lives we thought we were set
Those letters I never wrote-
I remember everything


And when it got too weird
We'd say goodbye
Those nights left alone
I couldn't forget
I hate the way you say "I told you so-"

*rpt.

This should've ended with a kiss
I hate the way you said
"I told you so"

Wondered (2002)

Have you ever wondered what it’s like to be loved?
Have you ever wondered what it’s like to live happily ever after?
Have you ever questioned your purpose in this lonely world?
Let’s go!

Live your life to the fullest,
Even if it don’t seem right
Live your life to the fullest,
Even if you think you won’t get through the night

Have you ever wondered why everything was messed up,
Why every little thing got out of hand?
Have you ever wondered why your life wasn’t perfect,
Wondered why you always felt like you were losing control
Let’s go!

*Chorus*

Have you ever wondered what it’s like to be loved?
Have you ever wondered what it’s like to live happily ever after?

All About Me (2002)

I catch a glimpse of you when you’re not lookin’
The sun is out, and our bodies are cookin’
The sky is so bright with fresh delight,
Until it turns into a starry, starry night

But baby can’t you see,
That you were made for me,
When I see you, I’m in tune with the sand and sea
Baby can’t you see

I need you
I want you
I’m all about you
Baby, please, oh please be all about me

I see you tryin’ to catch the waves with your surfboard,
Or maybe slay a dragon with your sharp sword,
Whatever it may be,
It shall be you and me

*Chorusx2*

All about me
Baby can’t you see,
That someday,
You’ll belong to me

Daydreaming (2003)

I’m not regretting
Anything I’ve done
I’m not regretting
Anything I’ve said
I’m not regretting
Anything
Don’t bug me,
I’m not listening
Don’t question me,
I’m not answering

Don’t try to contact me,
Don’t try to talk
Don’t try to drag me away,
I’ve got nothing to say (to you)
‘Cause I’m daydreaming
Daydreaming all day

I’m not listening
To anything you’ve gotta say
And I won’t walk away
I’m just staying put
But I won’t answer you
‘Cause I’m not really here

*Chorus*

I’m in my own little world
Daydreaming
Don’t try to wake me up
Daydreaming *repeat*

Emo Music (2003)

I slam the door of my bedroom
As my dad yells after me
I turn on the music full blast
And you won’t hear from me
Tonight, tonight

(Shut up!)

Crying, tears splashing on the pillowcase
Trying to get through all this craze, (it’s like a maze)
I feel like I’m falling
As I turn my music on real loud

Sobbing into the sheets,
I fall into a fitful sleep
I wish that you would shut up
You try to change me,
Say I’ve gotta learn
Tell me not to waste my time
But it’s not me,
It’s you
You’ve made me this way

(Shut up!)

*Chorus*

As I turn my emo music on real loud x2
As I turn me emo music on REAL LOUD!

Losing Me (2003)

Are you listening to me?
Can you hear my voice?
I know you can hear me
Why are you rejecting me,
My presence, my love?
I gave you my heart, but you gave it right back,
The very first chance you got
Why are you using me, abusing me, confusing me?
You’re losing me

Stop and listen, I’m sure you’ll understand,
Can you help me make it trough the rain?
Can you help me through this pain?

I feel so unwanted, so alone, so unaware of what will happen next
Do you feel the same?
Do you even remember my name?
Do you remember me at all?
My world has turned upside down
I’ve fallen and I can’t get back up
Why are you using me, abusing me, confusing me?
You’re losing me

*Chorus*

I won’t say sorry if it was your fault.

*Chorus*

Stop and listen, because you’re losing me

Something (2004)

When the darkness falls, and everything's a mess
I just close my eyes and hope for the best
It seems alright, for now I guess
If only I studied, I might have passed the test

If there is something, listening to the unspoken words
If there is something, missing in my heart
There could be something, hiding in the dark
Behind closed doors

It seems like everything's gone wrong now
But to me it felt so right, somehow
It seens alright for now I guess
If only I studied, I could have passed the test

*Chorusx2*

Without You (2002)

It’s too quiet
Where has everybody gone?
I’m so confused
Do you know the pain you’ve caused me?
Do you know how far we came?
Now it’s never gonna be the same
Because it’s too quiet without you

Say something
Anything
This silence is overwhelming
Just say anything
I wish…
But I know you can’t
Because you’re not here

Why did you leave me here all alone?
So alone. So unwanted.
It’s unbearable.
I need you. I need you, but you’re gone.
Gone away, and you left me all alone,
In silence,
Because it’s too quiet without you

*Chorus*

It’s too quiet without you

Try (2003)

Oh I try and I try and I try and I try…

I’m never gonna be good enough for you am I?
I just can’t pass your test
I’m never gonna be that perfect kid,
But you know…

There’s no such thing as perfect (Nobody can be perfect)
You just don’t understand
I try too hard, yet I still fail in your eyes
What do I have to do to be good enough?
What do I have to do to pass your test?

Oh I try and I try and I try…

So many questions asked, but no one’s answering
I’ve got potential,
But you just pick out all the reasons, all the things that aren’t good (Why?)
You tell me what’s wrong with me, when I already know,
Tell me something new.
Enlighten me.

*Chorus*

Oh I try and I try and I try and I try…
And I still fail (according to you)

I've Moved On (2002)

One day someone told me
That they wanted to hold me,
Wanted to be around me
But later on that day,
I yelled and he walked away
But that was all so long ago
Now I know to take it slow
I don’t need him anyways,
I’ve moved on

I’ve moved on to a better man,
‘Cause I feel I’d be better off this way,
I’ve moved on for good this time
And that’s why I chose to sing this, hey!
I’ve moved on

Later on, I know, He’d regret
Didn’t want to forget, no
He called me back, but I refused
To take all this abuse
I was used
But that was all so long ago
Now I know to take it slow
I don’t need him anyways
I’ve moved on

*Chorus*

I’ve moved on
I’ve moved on
I don’t need him anyways,
I’ve moved on

You're Up To No Good (2001 - Written by me and a friend)

When I see you look up at the sky
It almost makes me cry
Talkin’ on a plain old payphone
I see you meet a lady

I can’t help to think
You’re up to no good
Just like every guy in this world
Back to when we first met,
I thought you were different
But I guess I was wrong
Like you were saying all along

Do you think it’s fair to go out with other girls,
And to come home and say that you weren’t
It really gets on my nerves so,
Get out of my house
I don’t wanna see your face again
I think we’re gonna break up, and then

*Chorus*

It all makes sense now
I always knew you were up to no good
I can’t believe I went out with you
When I knew I was right at the sight of you

*Chorus*

Never Tell Me No (2003)

Tell me that we belong together
Tell me that nothing could ever tear us apart
Tell me that you'll never leave
That you'll never leave me alone

Please stay
I'll never let you go away
Don't go
Never, ever tell me no
Never ever ever

Tell me that you won't go
Tell me that you'll stay
Tell me that I'll always belong in your arms
That you'll never let me go

*Chorus*

That you'll never let me go
No, no
I'll never let you tell me no
No,no

Tell me that we belong together
And I'll never say no

Up, Down, All Around (2003)

When you see my face streaked with tears,
And you’re wonderin’ what’s been going on here,
You take my hand, and we start to fly,
The only question is,
Is why

Up, down, all around,
I see you smilin’ back at me
Up, down, all around
I wish I could be free,
Free like you, not like me

We sail past the clouds,
The city is so far down,
The sky is so blue,
We’re floating and I never wanna come back down

*Chorus*

We sway like this,
We sway like that,
A simple kiss,
And the world doesn’t exist
I’m so far away, yet I’m so near,
Wonderin’ what fantasy’s goin’ on here

*Chorus*

Up, down, all around

Free like you, like me!

Up , down, all around

Don't Wanna (2004)

It’s raining outside again
I can hear the sound of the drops on the window,
The thunder every minute
It’s 12:30am on a Saturday,
I should probably go to bed,
But your nagging has messed up my head

Don’t wanna go to sleep,
Don’t wanna wake up,
Don’t wanna see your face again
Don’t wanna be different,
I wanna be the same
I wanna do what I want for a change
I just wanna fit in

You tell me to do this, get that, go there
I just wanna let you know that I don’t care
You’ve lost me in all this confusion
My past life is all an illusion in this unfair world

*Chorus*

Don’t wanna be different, I wanna be the same
I just wanna fit in
I just wanna fit in
Fit in
Don’t wanna be me

Don't Know (2004)

Is it a dream, or is it real?
All these emotions I can’t feel
Anger, sadness, joy, hate
If this is the end, then I can’t wait
I can’t wait

You don’t know how I feel
You don’t know how I think
You don’t know the reason
For all this emotionless treason
You don’t know

Realistic shadows on my wall
But are they even real at all?
Dancing, singing, having fun
I really did think you were the one
But I was wrong,
I was wrong

*Chorus*

I can’t wait
Nananana
You don’t know
Nananana
I was wrong
Nananana
Na

Breaking Down (2004)

As I blink to hold back the tears
As I watch you turn away
As I break down (I’m breakin’ down)
As you leave me

You left me, it’s true
You left me, I can’t hold back
I can’t withdraw, recoil, reclaim you

Don’t hold back now (be strong)
Don’t run away (come along)
I can overcome this
I can’t walk away, no, I can’t stay
Yet, I’m breaking down
Once again

As you turn the corner
As I fall to the ground
As the world stops moving
As I break down (im breakin’ down)
As you leave me

*Bridge and Chorus*

I’m breakin’ down
Be strong
Come along

*Chorus*

Losing My Mind (2008)

Oh my god, she's done it again
Losing her mind getting lost in her head
Screaming but silent, her thoughts are intruding
She feels like she's dying.

I can't comprehend what's going on right now
I think I'm going crazy but I don't know how.
I try to stop it
I try to make it go away
But it looks like it's here to stay.

Oh my god she's done it again.
Oh my god, when will this end?
I'm losing my mind, getting lost in my head.

I can't help but give in , it's eating me up
Like the clouds in the sky, like juice in a cup.
It's tearing me up.
Oh my god, I'm doing it again.

Feel Like I'm Not Real (2008)

If only.
If only you knew how you made me feel.
I'm so confused, these thoughts I can't comprehend,
I've stopped making sense, I feel like I'm not real.
Anymore.

Am I?
Am I real?
I'm trying to hold on,
I'm trying for you.
SAVE ME FROM THESE THOUGHTS THAT I DON'T KNOW.
'Cause I don't know,
I don't know who I am anymore.
Save me from the me that's not me.
Anymore.

If only.
If only they knew.
If only they knew that my heart's been shattered into pieces.
Pieces that can't be put back together.
It could be all that I need to save me,
But it's not possible.

And now everything is crashing down on me.
Everything's crashing down,
Like a wave, a catastrophic wave upon a town.

This won't last forever.
This won't last forever.
I pray to God, that this feeling won't last forever.

SAVE ME FROM THE THOUGHTS THAT I DON'T KNOW.

But I feel like I'm not real anymore.
And I don't know how to make it go away.

Am I?
Am I real?
I'm trying to hold on,
I'm trying for you.
SAVE ME FROM THESE THOUGHTS THAT I DON'T KNOW.
'Cause I don't know,
I don't know who I am anymore.
Save me from the me that's not me.
Anymore.

Last Kiss Goodbye (2008)

I want to feel numb.
I don't want to care anymore.
I want all of my bad feelings,
To walk out the front door.

I want to feel what it's like to not feel.
I want to pretend that you were never real,
And then maybe I'll be okay..

Maybe I'd still be okay,
If you didn't walk away..

And you're not sorry, and you probably never will be,
And when you whispered in my ear and told me that you loved me,
I'm pretty sure you lied,
All those times you held me when it was really cold outside.

I want to feel numb.
I don't want to care anymore.
I wish that you never would have,
Walked out my front door.

And when you kissed me goodbye...
I didn't know that it would be the last time.

Crime of Passion (2006)

My heart stopped beating
When you stopped breathing
And now there's nothing left of us
Bang-
Another crime of passion
1-2-3 we're all dead now

Don't Make Me (2004)

I don’t care what you think
I don’t care what you say
I don’t care what you want from me
I’m not goin’ that way
You can’t tell me what to do
When you know I won’t listen to you
Just shut up, go away

You can’t make me
I won’t
You can’t make me
Just don’t
Don’t make me
Don’t make me
Don’t make me ‘cause I won’t

I don’t care if you care
What I do, what I wear
When I make a mistake
What time will I wake
You can’t tell me what to do
When You know I won’t listen to you
Just shut up, go away
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

*Chorus*

Can’t you see I don’t wanna do what you say
But you tell me anyway
This is the end, I’m letting go
Now it’s time for me to show you
What I’ve learned, what I’ve felt
I’m drifting in and out of life
I’m drifting in and out of life
I’m drifting
I’m drifting
I’m drifting in and out
Do you get the point?
I can’t hear you
Do you get the point?

Don’t make me x3
Don’t make me ‘cause I won’t

Face (2001 - Written by me and a friend)

I just can’t remember
It used to be so clear
I used to dream of you every night,
But now I just cry

Just one more time,
I wanna see your face in my dreams
Just one more way,
I wanna go
So many roads to take,
I guess I’ll never know

I wanted to be with you every moment of my life,
But now I see it would be a waste of time,
‘Cause you’re gone away forever

*Chorus*

One time before, you broke my heart
But now I have complete closure
If you want me back, you can forget that
I can’t believe I went out with you

*Chorus*

Oh! I guess I’ll never know

Just one more time, that’s all I ask

*Chorus*

Staring At The Ceiling ( 2004)

I can’t remember the last time I smiled,
The last time I felt happiness
Now I’m all alone, tears fall, so mest up
Listenin’ to Britney, lyin’ on my bedroom floor

Staring at the ceiling
The lights blur
Staring at the ceiling
My eyes close
Staring at the ceiling
The music takes me away

Dancing crazily around the room
The memories seem so clear, so vivid
You’ve left me alone, tears fall, so mest up
Listenin’ to Britney, lyin’ on my bedroom floor

*Chorus*

Staring at the ceiling
(You’ve left me alone, tears fall, so mest up)
Just staring at the ceiling

Race For Heartbreak

My heart aches in doubt when I see your eyes
With one look, one touch you could kill me,
And I'm not quite sure I want to die yet.
You're pleading yes, and I'm saying no,
Because I know that you're faking
All those words you said.

And still I don't wanna stop
When I see your pretty face
Kisses that make my heart race
And we're about to cross the finish line

I'm pleading yes, and you're saying no,
And now I'm crying and you're asking
"Why do you have to go?"
I know that everything that
Comes out of your pretty mouth
Is a lie,
But your heart aches in doubt
When you watch me walk away from everything
I've ever dreamed of.

And still I don't wanna stop
When I see your pretty face
Kisses that make my heart race
And we're about to cross the finish line,

And we're both in last place,
Love is not a game but
We're playing with our hearts and I have to
Be strong and leave you behind
You're written on my heart with permanent ink
And I'm forever in your mind
And I hope we meet again

Crumbled Hearts On The Horizon

Coming up from the dark horizon
With a wild look in your eyes
I can't seem to comprehend
What goes on under darkened skies

I breathe deep and you breathe fast
I don't know how long this is gonna last
But it's gonna have to stop sometime

I can't stop thinking about what you said
That one night under the stars,
Our wrists burdened with scars
From past lives left behind
Aching to escape the wars in our hearts

I don't know how long this is gonna last
You breathe deep and I breathe fast
But it's not gonna stop anytime soon
Or maybe never

It's not up to us to decide our fate
But everything happens for a reason
And the reason I'm still here is you
And my crumbled heart beats fast
When I see you under the sunset
And when I'm with you I think
That everything's gonna be okay

Here's Another Song Written About You/ Boy With Mic

I'm just a boy with a microphone, screaming for attention.
Lost in lies and hurt from past love affliction.
Stuck in a world where forever means never.
And I don't think I'll survive.
Eyes shining with suicide thoughts,
I feel the emptiness sinking in within my heart.
Where should I begin?

I'm just a boy with a microphone,
Crying through the chorus,
"I miss her, I kissed her, BUT SHE KISSED HIM."
Will I EVER get over it?

It seems like it's all neverending, and
history keeps repeating, and, I'll never learn.
And I'm tired of writing every single song about you.

Hey Juliet

You're the type of girl who makes here feel like home.
You're the type of girl who sends me crashing to the floor.
And I can't stand to think (whoa) about losing you.
And I don't know where to begin.

Only 20 minutes left as I'm lying here in bed.
I'm wondering what to do about youuuu.
It's insane the way I feel, and I think this might be real.
But I'm not sure I'm ready for it yet.
So baby, close your eyes and count to three.
And say you'll wanna be with me.
And tomorrow you'll be in my arms.

You're the type of girl who makes my heart beat fast.
Makes me feel like I'm having a heart attack. (Attack! Attack!)
You're the type of girl who lieks to sing a long.
To every song. (So sing along!)
And I'm trying hard to make you feel alright.
And I'm trying hard to put up a fight.
And I think I might just wanna be with you forever.
And I think we should be together.
So take my hand, but if you don't wanna , I'll understand.
So hey Juliet, please say yes.

Cinematic Heart Attack

You're nothing but a cinematic sunset -
Beautiful while it lasts, but doesn't last for long.
I swear to god, you're a heart attack.
A boomerang that doesn't come back.
Would you believe me if I told you, that after all this,
That you still have a special place in the broken pieces of my heart?

I got a not-so-secret secret, that you're all that's left of me.
>>I am nothing without you.<<
But you can't stand to be with me.
You're in my dreams, you're in my dreams,
Haunting me like a horror scene.

I hate you for this almost as much as I hate myself.
>>Are you forgetting about me?<<
You're nothing but a broken memory that
I can't stand to remember, but don't want to forget.
I don't want to forget about you.
>>But I have to.<<

My headphones sing me back words that break my heart,
Every song reminds me of you.
>>Every song reminds me of you.<<
Tears fall down my face as I sing the chorus.

>>Chorus.

I hope you find someone else,
And you're screaming his name, as he kisses your lips.
And I whisper in your ear,
"You're nothing but a cinematic sunset."

You're nothing but a cinematic sunset, a cinematic dream.
Close your eyes with kisses and wake up with the other side of the bed empty,
and no note of explanation.

I am nothing without you, you were everything to me.
>>I hate you<<.
I miss you.

Tonight ( Let's Get It On )

-Here we go again tonight
The stars are shining bright
One look in your eyes and I'm captivated
I'm falling for you tonight
I'm begging you, baby, please don't let me go

-Let's get it on tonight, let's get it on tonight
It's a quarter past ten and
I'm waiting to kiss your lips again
Let's get it on tonight, we can be together tonight

-It's just you and me now, the radio's up loud
You looked into my eyes and said "I'm falling for you"
And I said I fell for you too
The music makes me smile, leaves me in a trance,
And I'm saying

-Let's get it on tonight, let's get it on tonight
It's a quarter past ten and
I'm waiting to kiss your lips again
Let's get it on tonight, we can be together tonight
Let's get it on tonight, let's get it on tonight
It's a quarter past ten and
I'm waiting to kiss your lips again
Let's get it on tonight, we can be together tonight
Me and you forever tonight

-And now you're holding me close
And your eyes are telling me that you're wanting me
Just as much as I'm wanting you right now

-Let's get it on tonight, let's get it on tonight
It's a quarter past ten and
I'm waiting to kiss your lips again
Let's get it on tonight, we can be together tonight

Me and you forever tonight
Won't you stay with me tonight
Baby, won't you kiss me tonight
And baby, let's get it on tonight.

The Lies That Came Out Of Juliet's Mouth

You tell me you love me, then you break my heart into a million little pieces.
>>I am shattered, I am lost without you. <<
When you looked into my eyes and said, >>"It's over."<<, I could feel the pain growing inside of me,
and then you walked away and I couldn't believe >>couldn't understand<<>
My heart aches for you, my dear and you threw it all away.
>>You lied to me.<<>>cried to me<<
>>Did you even care for me at all?<<
I can't believe I didn't see this coming; that I believed all the fictitious words that came out of your >>pretty mouth<<