nov.06.09.
Yeah.
I've been listening to every word you said,
They've been runnin' through my head all night
Everything you said to me, just keeps me up,
Keeps me thinkin' 'bout you.
Makes me want to watch those pretty lips keep talkin'
Sometimes I just wanna kiss you to shut you up
Because sometimes, you just talk too much.
Just shut up, look into my eyes
I just want you for tonight, maybe more
Just stop talkin' and we'll see, kiss my lips
And I'll take you away for tonight, if that's okay with you
If that's okay with you.
You've been runnin' your mouth all night
And as much as I want you to keep talking,
I can't stop thinking of your words,
I can't stop thinking about you,
Why won't you stay out of my dreams?
Sometimes I just wanna kiss you to shut you up,
Because sometimes, you just talk too much,
Just shut up, look into my eyes,
I just want you for tonight, maybe more,
Just stop talkin' and we'll see, kiss my lips,
And I'll take you away for tonight, if that's okay with you,
If that's okay with you.
And I'll take you away for tonight, if that's okay,
If that's okay with you,
So what are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Keep talking, just so I can shut you up.
What are you waiting for?
Saturday, November 7, 2009
What Are You Waiting For (Mind Games)
November 6, 2009.
The scars on her wrists tell you what's been going on
What's been going on, yeah
You can see it in her eyes, if she'll let you
If she'll let you get that close
You can tell by the way she looks at you,
That there's more to her than what she lets on.
Just wait 'till you finally see what you've been waiting for.
YOU'LL HAVE TO CATCH HER, 'CAUSE SHE'S RUNNIN'
RUNNIN' AWAY FROM YOU, JUST TO SEE HOW FAR YOU'LL GO
YOU BETTER CATCH HER IF YOU CAN, 'CAUSE SHE WON'T WAIT FOREVER
WON'T WAIT FOR YOU TO WANT HER MORE
She can tell you've been longing for her,
She can see it in your eyes.
The way you move, the way you touch,
When the time is right, you can't deny,
You want her bad, and that little tease knows it,
So what are you waiting for?
YOU'LL HAVE TO CATCH HER, 'CAUSE SHE'S RUNNIN'
RUNNIN' AWAY FROM YOU, JUST TO SEE HOW FAR YOU'LL GO
YOU BETTER CATCH HER IF YOU CAN, 'CAUSE SHE WON'T WAIT FOREVER
WON'T WAIT FOR YOU TO WANT HER MORE
YOU'LL HAVE TO CATCH HER, 'CAUSE SHE'S RUNNIN'
RUNNIN' AWAY FROM YOU, HOW FAR WILL YOU GO?
YOU BETTER CATCH HER WHILE YOU CAN,
'CAUSE SHE'S NOT WAITING,
YEAH, SHE CAN'T WAIT FOREVER
You can see it in her eyes, she wants you all to herself,
And if you wait too long, you're gonna miss out,
Yeah, it's your loss,
And you'll be missing out.
The scars on her wrists tell you what's been going on
What's been going on, yeah
You can see it in her eyes, if she'll let you
If she'll let you get that close
You can tell by the way she looks at you,
That there's more to her than what she lets on.
Just wait 'till you finally see what you've been waiting for.
YOU'LL HAVE TO CATCH HER, 'CAUSE SHE'S RUNNIN'
RUNNIN' AWAY FROM YOU, JUST TO SEE HOW FAR YOU'LL GO
YOU BETTER CATCH HER IF YOU CAN, 'CAUSE SHE WON'T WAIT FOREVER
WON'T WAIT FOR YOU TO WANT HER MORE
She can tell you've been longing for her,
She can see it in your eyes.
The way you move, the way you touch,
When the time is right, you can't deny,
You want her bad, and that little tease knows it,
So what are you waiting for?
YOU'LL HAVE TO CATCH HER, 'CAUSE SHE'S RUNNIN'
RUNNIN' AWAY FROM YOU, JUST TO SEE HOW FAR YOU'LL GO
YOU BETTER CATCH HER IF YOU CAN, 'CAUSE SHE WON'T WAIT FOREVER
WON'T WAIT FOR YOU TO WANT HER MORE
YOU'LL HAVE TO CATCH HER, 'CAUSE SHE'S RUNNIN'
RUNNIN' AWAY FROM YOU, HOW FAR WILL YOU GO?
YOU BETTER CATCH HER WHILE YOU CAN,
'CAUSE SHE'S NOT WAITING,
YEAH, SHE CAN'T WAIT FOREVER
You can see it in her eyes, she wants you all to herself,
And if you wait too long, you're gonna miss out,
Yeah, it's your loss,
And you'll be missing out.
I AM LISTENING TO HANNAH MONTANA (nov 06 09)
It started out that way
In cool Autumn, midday
She sat on the grass amidst the trees,
Just starting up at the clouds.
They seemed to go on forever,
Just like her thoughts...
"I guess you don't need me."
She said, as she closed her eyes.
He just stood and stared,
Yeah, he just stood and stared.
Then he walked away.
In cool Autumn, midday
She sat on the grass amidst the trees,
Just starting up at the clouds.
They seemed to go on forever,
Just like her thoughts...
"I guess you don't need me."
She said, as she closed her eyes.
He just stood and stared,
Yeah, he just stood and stared.
Then he walked away.
Friday, November 6, 2009
False Lies: A Condradiction (April Tenth 2009)
My eyes bleed crystal tears, shimmering with false hope.
My heart longs for more, and my mind misses you so.
Shining eyes, and false lies..
Who knows why she cries?
Isn't "false lies" contradicting itself...?
My heart longs for more, and my mind misses you so.
Shining eyes, and false lies..
Who knows why she cries?
Isn't "false lies" contradicting itself...?
Medley And Ikea. (April 2008)
I really don't remember writing this. At all. I don't know if me, or Felicia did. But. WTF LOL.
This is an epic adventure.
Medley was walking down the street when she met a lady. The lady asked her what she wanted to be when she grew up, and if she would please, buy this magic herb, fifty pense apiece.
Medley was stunned at this offer, and simply said, simply put, that she did not know what she wanted to do with her life, and paid for the magic herb, although she did not know what the hell it was.
She continued walking her way, and the mysterious lady continued walking hers.
Ikea was Medley's friend. Ikea was hood, so hood, infact, that she often just walked the streets saying, "I'm soooo hood." That's a song, also. I've never even heard it. So anyways, Ikea was walking the streets, opposite the way of Medley, from her house, and soon they'll meet. They'll meet again, they will. I'm diggin' that beat. Ikea, alas, runs into some trouble.
"Dayumm, whatchu cookin??" Alonso stops her in the street, poised for battle, and possibly buttsecks.
"I'm sooo hood," Utters Ikea, and pulls out her shiny red switchblade. "LET'S BRAWL." Alonso, frightened by this uncanny act of terror, stands still, stunned.
"Oh," He says, and walks away, and Ikea continues on her merry way, not paying attention, and laughing at the word 'Spool'.
Then BAM. She runs right into Medley.
"O hay, just lurkin'." Says Medley.
"Ahh," Says Ikea. "I didn't see you. I just got into another brawl with Alonso, when well he ever learn?"
"Yes, when." Comments Medley.
"What's that you got there?" Ikea motions to the magic herb, still fresh in Medley's hand.
"What's what I got where?"
"That, in your hand. What it be?"
"Oh, it be." A grin spread across Medley's face. Ikea looked confused. 'A lady, back down that way. Sold it to me for a special deal of ten squid. Pip pip, cheerio. "
"Oh..." Said Ikea. "That sounds suspicious. But still, you never told me what it is."
"I don't know, really. Quite really, it's a magic herb, she said, she did."
"A magic herb, you say?" Ikea questions. "And what do you do with this so called, 'magic herb,' ?"
"Don't know, I do." Medley answers, half-assededly, half-mindedly, and staring into the sun. "Why I bought it, I don't even know."
"We should go on an epic adventure to NexopiaLand and ask the great Cream if he's got the answer we are loooking for, to find out what this Magic herb you've got is.." Ikea suggests, cocking her head in a Collie-dog sort of way. A dumbed down version of Lassie.
"Yes, indeed. Splendid idea my dear collegue!" Medley's eyes, wide open like a saucer in anticipation of this newly suggested suggestion.
"Well, let us go now, shall we?"
"We shall."
And so the epic adventure begins.
This is an epic adventure.
Medley was walking down the street when she met a lady. The lady asked her what she wanted to be when she grew up, and if she would please, buy this magic herb, fifty pense apiece.
Medley was stunned at this offer, and simply said, simply put, that she did not know what she wanted to do with her life, and paid for the magic herb, although she did not know what the hell it was.
She continued walking her way, and the mysterious lady continued walking hers.
Ikea was Medley's friend. Ikea was hood, so hood, infact, that she often just walked the streets saying, "I'm soooo hood." That's a song, also. I've never even heard it. So anyways, Ikea was walking the streets, opposite the way of Medley, from her house, and soon they'll meet. They'll meet again, they will. I'm diggin' that beat. Ikea, alas, runs into some trouble.
"Dayumm, whatchu cookin??" Alonso stops her in the street, poised for battle, and possibly buttsecks.
"I'm sooo hood," Utters Ikea, and pulls out her shiny red switchblade. "LET'S BRAWL." Alonso, frightened by this uncanny act of terror, stands still, stunned.
"Oh," He says, and walks away, and Ikea continues on her merry way, not paying attention, and laughing at the word 'Spool'.
Then BAM. She runs right into Medley.
"O hay, just lurkin'." Says Medley.
"Ahh," Says Ikea. "I didn't see you. I just got into another brawl with Alonso, when well he ever learn?"
"Yes, when." Comments Medley.
"What's that you got there?" Ikea motions to the magic herb, still fresh in Medley's hand.
"What's what I got where?"
"That, in your hand. What it be?"
"Oh, it be." A grin spread across Medley's face. Ikea looked confused. 'A lady, back down that way. Sold it to me for a special deal of ten squid. Pip pip, cheerio. "
"Oh..." Said Ikea. "That sounds suspicious. But still, you never told me what it is."
"I don't know, really. Quite really, it's a magic herb, she said, she did."
"A magic herb, you say?" Ikea questions. "And what do you do with this so called, 'magic herb,' ?"
"Don't know, I do." Medley answers, half-assededly, half-mindedly, and staring into the sun. "Why I bought it, I don't even know."
"We should go on an epic adventure to NexopiaLand and ask the great Cream if he's got the answer we are loooking for, to find out what this Magic herb you've got is.." Ikea suggests, cocking her head in a Collie-dog sort of way. A dumbed down version of Lassie.
"Yes, indeed. Splendid idea my dear collegue!" Medley's eyes, wide open like a saucer in anticipation of this newly suggested suggestion.
"Well, let us go now, shall we?"
"We shall."
And so the epic adventure begins.
Can't, Won't. (March 6, 2008)
Can't answer, don't answer.
Hot, cold, I don't know.
Burning up, slowing down.
Can't make a sound.
Closing my eyes,
Everything blurs,
The sounds are distorted,
There's nothing you can do,
But hold me.
Hot, cold, I don't know.
Burning up, slowing down.
Can't make a sound.
Closing my eyes,
Everything blurs,
The sounds are distorted,
There's nothing you can do,
But hold me.
I Wrote This LOL (Jan 22, 2008)
Let me hold you.
And I promise,
We'll never be far away,
Separated by the dark starry sky.
We lie apart wishing.
Our hearts beat together,
Faster, slower, faster,
Take a breath, open your eyes..
I'm right in front of you.
Just let me hold you,
And our hearts will beat as one,
Together.
And I promise,
We'll never be far away,
Separated by the dark starry sky.
We lie apart wishing.
Our hearts beat together,
Faster, slower, faster,
Take a breath, open your eyes..
I'm right in front of you.
Just let me hold you,
And our hearts will beat as one,
Together.
Math Test (Jan,16 2008)
I did it for the lulz.
I'm sh-sh-shakin' BIC pencil #2 0.5mm Catastrophe pink neon rawr footsteps steer clear of Texas I hope Mac is okay heart beating faster short of breath SLAM Nolan's foot paper bangs = dead. algebraic functions of amoebas thoughtsrunningtogether TO GET HER together forever & ever, babe, stringing sentences word for word rehearsing lines that i've never heard silence now but who's to blame? it's all the same It's all coming back to me now [ LOL CUMBACK.]
Cèline Dion. LOLWUT?
How could I forget you, Nights so cold, memories lost, mouth open, eyes shut no one's at fault but ourselves I can't remember when I last felt so empty. My thoughts are only strung together by letters and words not one making sense, stumbling over one another like a wasted drunken mess, typing, walking down snowy dark roads in blistering shoes you shouldn't've worn in the first place, I say. Climbing up on the bridge, make you think, Feel the rush. Crush, please don't jump. So I don't, want to frighten you, I say, Cold wind blows stumble home fall in arms asleep, Nowhere else to go but you. Don't you know who I think I am?
Envy and defeat brush up against you and whisper in your ear eyes of the enemy are not tranquil and results could end catastrophic, your head and heart demolished into 3.14x10 pieces of defeat. Heartbeat Heartbeat nothing left can't stay time running out until we see the afternoon sky.
I'm sh-sh-shakin' BIC pencil #2 0.5mm Catastrophe pink neon rawr footsteps steer clear of Texas I hope Mac is okay heart beating faster short of breath SLAM Nolan's foot paper bangs = dead. algebraic functions of amoebas thoughtsrunningtogether TO GET HER together forever & ever, babe, stringing sentences word for word rehearsing lines that i've never heard silence now but who's to blame? it's all the same It's all coming back to me now [ LOL CUMBACK.]
Cèline Dion. LOLWUT?
How could I forget you, Nights so cold, memories lost, mouth open, eyes shut no one's at fault but ourselves I can't remember when I last felt so empty. My thoughts are only strung together by letters and words not one making sense, stumbling over one another like a wasted drunken mess, typing, walking down snowy dark roads in blistering shoes you shouldn't've worn in the first place, I say. Climbing up on the bridge, make you think, Feel the rush. Crush, please don't jump. So I don't, want to frighten you, I say, Cold wind blows stumble home fall in arms asleep, Nowhere else to go but you. Don't you know who I think I am?
Envy and defeat brush up against you and whisper in your ear eyes of the enemy are not tranquil and results could end catastrophic, your head and heart demolished into 3.14x10 pieces of defeat. Heartbeat Heartbeat nothing left can't stay time running out until we see the afternoon sky.
???? (Christmas 2007)
She's nothing special.
She's worthless.
She doesn't care what happens to her.
Or anything about life at all.
And that scares here.
And she cares about everyone around her.
She just doesn't know of any way of showing it.
That she's comfortable with.
And she can't change that no matter how hard she tries.
And they just don't get that.
And they push her and push her.
And she's breaking.
And the only person she truly loves is him.
She doesn't want to grow up.
And she has to.
And that scares her more than anything.
And she wishes it would all just stop.
And she could be in his arms .
And with him.
Forever.
She's worthless.
She doesn't care what happens to her.
Or anything about life at all.
And that scares here.
And she cares about everyone around her.
She just doesn't know of any way of showing it.
That she's comfortable with.
And she can't change that no matter how hard she tries.
And they just don't get that.
And they push her and push her.
And she's breaking.
And the only person she truly loves is him.
She doesn't want to grow up.
And she has to.
And that scares her more than anything.
And she wishes it would all just stop.
And she could be in his arms .
And with him.
Forever.
Nothing Makes Sense Anymore (dec.11.07)
So take my hand,
And we'll make it.
I swear.
I should have just trusted you from the beginning.
It's not my fault that I have my doubts sometimes.
It's just sometimes you act a little differently,
And it scares me and it makes me think,
Maybe I'm doing something wrong, here.
I always assume I'm at fault for everything.
Because that's the way it's always been.
I can't help thinking that way,
Because most of the time,
I am usually the one to blame.
And I know you love me, baby.
And I love you too.
The feelings I have for you are stronger than any feelings I've ever had before.
And I can't deny that.
And all I want is for you to feel the same way about me.
And I just need to be reassured.
I put so much trust in you,
And I don't want it broken.
When you cry.
I die a little inside.
And I can't take it.
I just can't see you like that.
And I care so much about you.
And we'll make it.
I swear.
I should have just trusted you from the beginning.
It's not my fault that I have my doubts sometimes.
It's just sometimes you act a little differently,
And it scares me and it makes me think,
Maybe I'm doing something wrong, here.
I always assume I'm at fault for everything.
Because that's the way it's always been.
I can't help thinking that way,
Because most of the time,
I am usually the one to blame.
And I know you love me, baby.
And I love you too.
The feelings I have for you are stronger than any feelings I've ever had before.
And I can't deny that.
And all I want is for you to feel the same way about me.
And I just need to be reassured.
I put so much trust in you,
And I don't want it broken.
When you cry.
I die a little inside.
And I can't take it.
I just can't see you like that.
And I care so much about you.
I Think I'm Going To... (nov.27.07)
I think I don't know what to think.
I feel numb.
Blurry.
My eyes close and I can feel it.
Pulsing.
Living.
Inside of me.
The hunger for you grows.
I take a deep breath
As my heart beats faster,
And I open my eyes.
And to my suprise...
You're still not here.
All this wishing,
Hoping.
Waiting.
Has all gone down the drain.
Sinking back into my heart.
And I'm back to feeling
Numb.
Blurry.
Alone.
I feel numb.
Blurry.
My eyes close and I can feel it.
Pulsing.
Living.
Inside of me.
The hunger for you grows.
I take a deep breath
As my heart beats faster,
And I open my eyes.
And to my suprise...
You're still not here.
All this wishing,
Hoping.
Waiting.
Has all gone down the drain.
Sinking back into my heart.
And I'm back to feeling
Numb.
Blurry.
Alone.
Sometimes (nov.16.07)
Sometimes..
The things that used to make you happy
Don't work
Anymore.
Sometimes,
If you have too much of something.
You keep having to take stronger doses
To get higher and higher.
And then you.
Crash.
The things that used to make you happy
Don't work
Anymore.
Sometimes,
If you have too much of something.
You keep having to take stronger doses
To get higher and higher.
And then you.
Crash.
Sunrise (Nov. 10/07)
Never-ending nights,
And days that seem to pass us by in a blur.
Way too far for now.
But way to late.
What are we going to do,
When it all ends?
What's going to happen when the night ends
And the sun comes up,
In it's peachy-keen color.
Will we say hello,
Or will we say goodbye?
And days that seem to pass us by in a blur.
Way too far for now.
But way to late.
What are we going to do,
When it all ends?
What's going to happen when the night ends
And the sun comes up,
In it's peachy-keen color.
Will we say hello,
Or will we say goodbye?
RAINBOW ( lol grade 5 )
I look pretty in pink
Beautiful in blue
So many colors,
I just don't know what to do.
I look gorgeous in green,
Outrageous in orange.
I see the colors of the rainbow.
I look good in a rainbow.
Beautiful in blue
So many colors,
I just don't know what to do.
I look gorgeous in green,
Outrageous in orange.
I see the colors of the rainbow.
I look good in a rainbow.
Line? (November 10, 2007)
Rehearsing the lines that I'll never need,
To a script only written in my head.
I'll say those words, if you do.
But I can't admit to it.
To a script only written in my head.
I'll say those words, if you do.
But I can't admit to it.
THE LEVEL 27 MELON (2003/4)
By Kari and Ash.
There once was a melon
Who was wearing Level 27
That melon was hopeless
Because his clothes were soapless
Then he met a fig
That was wearing a wig
That resembled the hair of Paul
Whom he met at the mall
Whilst eating Chris
Whom we shall never miss
Then they bought a rat
And tried on a hat
That hat was a bi
Don't you wanna know why?
Because that hat met Cone
And his cousin Ramone
That hat killed them all
With a guy named Jamal
And that is why we all shall die
Have a nice day
(And if you're wondering, Jamal ran off with the fig.)
There once was a melon
Who was wearing Level 27
That melon was hopeless
Because his clothes were soapless
Then he met a fig
That was wearing a wig
That resembled the hair of Paul
Whom he met at the mall
Whilst eating Chris
Whom we shall never miss
Then they bought a rat
And tried on a hat
That hat was a bi
Don't you wanna know why?
Because that hat met Cone
And his cousin Ramone
That hat killed them all
With a guy named Jamal
And that is why we all shall die
Have a nice day
(And if you're wondering, Jamal ran off with the fig.)
Fading Night (2003)
As i stare into the dark sky,
Thoughts pass me by,
Stars, twinkling like a handful of glitter
I wonder if you ever think of me
So many days have passed
I knew it wouldn't last
Like the stars fade away
When dawn comes, then day
Darkness fades into night.
Just like love fades into hate
Thoughts pass me by,
Stars, twinkling like a handful of glitter
I wonder if you ever think of me
So many days have passed
I knew it wouldn't last
Like the stars fade away
When dawn comes, then day
Darkness fades into night.
Just like love fades into hate
Trapped (2003)
Tears fall down my cheeks,
Sobs escape my mouth,
The sun is shining through the window,
But I cannot see it,
For my life is full of hate and disappointment,
The house feels like a jail,
From which I cannot escape.
I try too, constantly,
But I cannot escape, I must not,
But I can't help rebelling against the rules
once in a while.
No one can.
But why is it that we must get into trouble when we do?
Why is it that we must suffer,
When we try to do our best?
Why?
More tears fall as I ponder this,
So many questions asked, but no one's answering, for they
ask me more than I ask them.
They interrogate me,
Try to change me,
as if I'm a convict, a creep.
But I am not. I am a human being.
We all are.
I'm sorry, I can't be perfect.
No one can.
Everyone has their flaws,
Some, more than others.
The light fades, the hate overcomes me.
The darkness prevails, never leaving.
I am trapped.
Sobs escape my mouth,
The sun is shining through the window,
But I cannot see it,
For my life is full of hate and disappointment,
The house feels like a jail,
From which I cannot escape.
I try too, constantly,
But I cannot escape, I must not,
But I can't help rebelling against the rules
once in a while.
No one can.
But why is it that we must get into trouble when we do?
Why is it that we must suffer,
When we try to do our best?
Why?
More tears fall as I ponder this,
So many questions asked, but no one's answering, for they
ask me more than I ask them.
They interrogate me,
Try to change me,
as if I'm a convict, a creep.
But I am not. I am a human being.
We all are.
I'm sorry, I can't be perfect.
No one can.
Everyone has their flaws,
Some, more than others.
The light fades, the hate overcomes me.
The darkness prevails, never leaving.
I am trapped.
Afraid (2003)
I was afraid.
Afraid for you, afraid for me.
Afraid of disappearing into
the darkness, slipping into a deep sleep,
The light, fading, fading, fading
Until there's nothing more than a
tiny spec, so small that you can't even
tell it's there. That's how I feel.
Like that tiny spec of light,
Nearly extinct, unseen.
I am afraid, still, of being smaller,
dying. I am afraid of dying out.
Afraid for you, afraid for me.
Afraid of disappearing into
the darkness, slipping into a deep sleep,
The light, fading, fading, fading
Until there's nothing more than a
tiny spec, so small that you can't even
tell it's there. That's how I feel.
Like that tiny spec of light,
Nearly extinct, unseen.
I am afraid, still, of being smaller,
dying. I am afraid of dying out.
Fading (2003)
Do I really exist, or am I a fragment of your mind?
A pigment of the future, a glimpse into the past,
Ever changing, disappearing, unnoticed,
Lost, trapped, caught in between worlds,
As far as the eye can see, I am nothing.
No one, In my place, there is nothing there,
Nothing but air. In my place is a vast emptiness,
Ever existing, me, never existing, never born,
I am a ghost to the world, just a mere image in your mind,
Ever searching, ever looking, I am lost
Nobody can see me, I'm fading into pure nothingness,
Fading until there's nothing left.
Fading, fading, fading,
Until the fragment in the back of your mind is gone.
A pigment of the future, a glimpse into the past,
Ever changing, disappearing, unnoticed,
Lost, trapped, caught in between worlds,
As far as the eye can see, I am nothing.
No one, In my place, there is nothing there,
Nothing but air. In my place is a vast emptiness,
Ever existing, me, never existing, never born,
I am a ghost to the world, just a mere image in your mind,
Ever searching, ever looking, I am lost
Nobody can see me, I'm fading into pure nothingness,
Fading until there's nothing left.
Fading, fading, fading,
Until the fragment in the back of your mind is gone.
"First Cut"
hahahahafsfdgfdgdgfd.
Jesus, fuck, what was I thinking when I wrote this ?!
^_^
The darkness envelopes the room,
I feel alone, dizzy, unsure,
The razor burns a hole in my shaking hand.
Should I? Shouldn't I? Should I? Shouldn't I?
My breath is unsteady, my heart skips a beat.
Inhale, exhale.
The razorblade connects with my wrist.
I wince in pain and feel the cool trickle of blood drip down my arm.
I hold my breathe and squeeze my eyes shut.
I did it, I did it.
Jesus, fuck, what was I thinking when I wrote this ?!
^_^
The darkness envelopes the room,
I feel alone, dizzy, unsure,
The razor burns a hole in my shaking hand.
Should I? Shouldn't I? Should I? Shouldn't I?
My breath is unsteady, my heart skips a beat.
Inhale, exhale.
The razorblade connects with my wrist.
I wince in pain and feel the cool trickle of blood drip down my arm.
I hold my breathe and squeeze my eyes shut.
I did it, I did it.
"Love Evergone" 2003/2004 idk
It's been a while since I've smiled,
It's been a while since my eyes have lit up in happiness,
It's been a while since I've seen you.
Where have you gone?
You make me feel so strong.
Now, as the tears fall from my eyes,
Knowing you're not here,
I hear the geese call,
And feel the crisp Autumn breeze,
The TV blaring downstairs,
But I sit alone in my room and cry,
I wonder why...
I've felt this way for far too long,
I don't think I'll ever know the feeling of
joy again, but I think of you and all the bad feelings leave my body,
Leaving only love, then hate,
Remembering that you left.
Come back, please come back.
I cannot live without you!
You were the love of my life,
The beauty in my eyes when there was only beast,
I curl up on my bed,
Your picture in my hand.
Sleeping, dreaming 'till dawn,
It's a brand new day,
But I know your love for me has been forgotten.
Your love is evergone.
It's been a while since my eyes have lit up in happiness,
It's been a while since I've seen you.
Where have you gone?
You make me feel so strong.
Now, as the tears fall from my eyes,
Knowing you're not here,
I hear the geese call,
And feel the crisp Autumn breeze,
The TV blaring downstairs,
But I sit alone in my room and cry,
I wonder why...
I've felt this way for far too long,
I don't think I'll ever know the feeling of
joy again, but I think of you and all the bad feelings leave my body,
Leaving only love, then hate,
Remembering that you left.
Come back, please come back.
I cannot live without you!
You were the love of my life,
The beauty in my eyes when there was only beast,
I curl up on my bed,
Your picture in my hand.
Sleeping, dreaming 'till dawn,
It's a brand new day,
But I know your love for me has been forgotten.
Your love is evergone.
As I Walk (idk what year, 2004?)
I hear the laughter,
It takes over the small room
I hear the sarcasm,
Overflowing, the love, the hate.
The wind blowing through the window,
I feel the chill.
As I walk down the path,
The rain falls down,
As I walk down the path,
Thoughts run through my head,
As I walk.
I hear the gleeful shrieks,
Of good times in the past,
The chilling screams of the bad,
Playing again and again in my brain,
Like a cheap rerun soap opera,
As I walk down the path
It takes over the small room
I hear the sarcasm,
Overflowing, the love, the hate.
The wind blowing through the window,
I feel the chill.
As I walk down the path,
The rain falls down,
As I walk down the path,
Thoughts run through my head,
As I walk.
I hear the gleeful shrieks,
Of good times in the past,
The chilling screams of the bad,
Playing again and again in my brain,
Like a cheap rerun soap opera,
As I walk down the path
I Don't Know What To Say Here (2005)
I may or may not have put this already, but I haven't seen it.
I can't hear a word you're saying.
You're screaming at me as if
I'm some insignificant creature.
But the words just pass through me.
I don't know what I've done wront anyways.
I know I don't belong,
You don't have to tell me that.
'Cos you're a fake.
Why are you playing these games?
You can't win.
They'll find out eventually.
Then what would you do,
When they know you're a liar?
I can't hear a word you're saying.
You're screaming at me as if
I'm some insignificant creature.
But the words just pass through me.
I don't know what I've done wront anyways.
I know I don't belong,
You don't have to tell me that.
'Cos you're a fake.
Why are you playing these games?
You can't win.
They'll find out eventually.
Then what would you do,
When they know you're a liar?
Follow The Rainbow
When you look in the mirror,
And your eyes are just black holes,
You turn around, and everything's not what it seems,
You turn on the TV and it's like you're swimming in the scenes.
Do you know what it's like to feel insane?
Do you know what it's like when colors sing to you,
And you forget your own name?
Come with me, and follow the rainbow to temporary insanity.
When the trees sprout hands, and the grass starts to move,
And you feel like you're trapped, and everything starts to blur.
When you look in the mirror, and you don't look like yourself,
And you think you're someone else.
-Chorus-
Do you know what it's like to feel insane?
Come with me, and take a trip into temporary insanity.
And your eyes are just black holes,
You turn around, and everything's not what it seems,
You turn on the TV and it's like you're swimming in the scenes.
Do you know what it's like to feel insane?
Do you know what it's like when colors sing to you,
And you forget your own name?
Come with me, and follow the rainbow to temporary insanity.
When the trees sprout hands, and the grass starts to move,
And you feel like you're trapped, and everything starts to blur.
When you look in the mirror, and you don't look like yourself,
And you think you're someone else.
-Chorus-
Do you know what it's like to feel insane?
Come with me, and take a trip into temporary insanity.
Take Me Home
"Hello," He said as he sat down next to me,
A quiet scream inside my head, I said,
"Hey," right back, and stared on straight ahead.
Then the lights blurred,
And soon enough my speech was slurred,
And he said, "Can I take you home tonight?"
It's like I fell down, his arms around me,
I'm wasted, I can still taste it,
I don't know what's going on.
I looked straight on ahead,
And then the lights blurred,
I'm hypnotized by them.
And I fell down,
The room was spinning 'round,
And he took my hand,
And he took me home tonight.
A quiet scream inside my head, I said,
"Hey," right back, and stared on straight ahead.
Then the lights blurred,
And soon enough my speech was slurred,
And he said, "Can I take you home tonight?"
It's like I fell down, his arms around me,
I'm wasted, I can still taste it,
I don't know what's going on.
I looked straight on ahead,
And then the lights blurred,
I'm hypnotized by them.
And I fell down,
The room was spinning 'round,
And he took my hand,
And he took me home tonight.
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